19-11-2012

好久没update blog了。今天真的是闷到发慌。哈哈 其实有时候emo的时候真的好像在这里写日记。 可是～～我怎么舍得让关注我的朋友担心叻？ 今天的心情普通咯～ 今天是２０１２年１１月１９日。hmm。还蛮有意义的。哈哈 第一次的。。hmm。。哈哈。 其实今天想分享的是２０１２世界末日。 越来越靠近就越来越多新闻关于世界末日。 让我都开始怀疑到底是不是真的 我听过两个版本 第一是全世界会到了一个天灾温室效应气候变化 导致地球变成一个不适合人类生存的地方 第二是１２月２１日当天全世界会陷入黑暗三天 说真的，以前都会很期待到底会发生什么事 可是认真想一想要是真得到了生死一瞬间到敌底人的脑里在想些什么？ 我经历过一次。差点溺水。就在一个月前。 那种感觉是脑里放空。或许我还不至于生死一瞬间。 可是那一次以后我知道很多东西要做就要做 还有该珍惜的人就要珍惜尤其是在家里等着我们回去得家人 刚才说的两个版本我比较相信第二个 但是可以选当然是什么事都没有啦。我还有很多事没做！ 试想想，如果世界怎得陷入黑暗 人类只能用电力维持光明。而到时又被种种原因让到电力停止 什么都没有，不能联络家人，没光线，没有交通从沙巴回西马。 这种种的可能如果发生，渺小的我们能做些什么？ 要是黑暗不止三天，我们又能怎么样？ 有很多东西都是不到最后一分钟你不明白那种焦虑与无助 另外，我们如果没有时常提醒自己，那种警惕与珍惜的情感是不会被激发出来 我怕痛，怕跌摩托，怕被车撞，怕无常 但是我更怕的是，当死亡来临，我连道别的机会都没有。 那一次的溺水，让我知道我爸妈是我最不能失去的 那种无法道别的感觉真的是糟透了 我不懂我的警惕感与珍惜的情感可以保持多久。 或许把每天都当作是世界末日，我们会更加热爱生命，珍惜感情。

新的偶像。韩国团体

遗忘了何时时开始，我喜欢韩国，韩国人，韩语，还有其他有关韩语的东西。可能是被电视剧影响。而且也蛮爱听韩语歌。但是当朋友提起k-pop这个词的时候，我总是没有话说。因为我从没有关注过这些。听的韩语歌多数是从朋友那边得知好听才听。或是一些电视剧听到好听就下载来听。但是在前几天巧合下听到了一首韩语歌，很吸引我。在一段时间后，我终于找到了这首歌。而且还下载了他们的music video来看。一直有看法认为这些团体都是卖脸罢了，但是听了他们的歌就是有种被吸着的感觉。可能我错了。哈哈。还有被韩语的魅力吸引住了吧。 这组合是最近超火红的Big Bang。吸引住我的歌是 Blue。还有超红的Fantastic Baby~ 最出名的 Bomm Shakalaka~ 其实除了他们，我还蛮喜欢另外一个女生组合2NE1。当然也是被她们的I am the best吸引到。她们的那招牌Boom Boratata~ 他们的魅力越来越强。我快招架不住了 有看我的，如果你们有什么好介绍，记得share给我 :)

11-04-2011

today.. public holiday
while im having fun and plan to eat sushi with my fellow frens,
i received a terrible news. its earthquake happened in indonesia, aceh.
and the aftershock is spread towards the surrounding, include my hometown, kedah.
ohh.. wat da.. im seriously worry bout my mom and so my brother who works at penang.
i can do nothing and stand here seeing them suffer over there. i never feel such thing when im there. and i heard this is the most serious time that even kedah can feel such strong aftershock. now.. just hope that the disaster will stop happening.

please.. dun hurt the earth anymore. and Sp. u must tolerate before i back to u. dun become pieces. LOL

26-03-12

Its 11pm now. Suddenly i feel so free cause just finish a small part of my programming. though there is still lot of it waiting for me to complete it. but then i suddenly got the feel wanna update my blog. ahha
今天是第二学期的第六个礼拜。今天是blue monday!一个繁忙的"忙"day。
第二学期已经过了一个月。这一个月里真的很充实。
几乎没有机会好好休息好好享受就如上学期。
今天早上又在感叹为什么今天是星期一..haiz..
可是还好今天的第一堂课是在11点。可以迟醒。
就在今早等巴士时。不懂怎么的。
突然间脑海里浮现了很多回忆。
不是什么emo的东西。
只是好像突然间想家了。
看着巴士一辆一辆的过。
我想起在老家的妈妈。
还记得那时我中四或五的时候。
那是由于非常爱买衣服裤子。都经常都到槟城去买。
有一次太疯狂。和妈妈两人搭巴士在转ferry在转巴士到那里的广场买。
由于当晚有补习，买完后我就赶着回家。但却因为没经验和妈妈搭错巴士。
我的脾气又不是很好。当时就发了妈妈的脾气。
当时的我很幼稚。一直怪妈妈，说妈妈。就觉得当时的自己很不应该。
而且我有爱脸黑黑。这事情给我很大印象。
虽然它不会时常浮现出来。但当早上我想起时。那画面依然清晰。
我还记得当时穿着什么衣服。
那巴士来回的画面不断提醒着我这件往事。
就因为最近比较忙。越来越少打电话回家。
我突然好想打一通电话回去。可是每次都忙到晚上。妈妈都睡了。
其实到底家人在每个人的眼里是什么意义？
可能我出生的家庭环境比较好。而造就了我会恋家。
我想家。有时还会伤感。
经过这一段大学的日子后，我发现大学让我明白自立的生活，
让我明白没有车的感觉，让我明白钱得来不易，
让我明白没有人会一直迁就你，给你钱花，一切都为你准备好除了家人。
更让我明白理财很重要。妈妈以前就一直叫我吃吃吃。（因为我很爱吃)
但是我完全没想过爸爸赚钱的辛苦。就只会乱花。不懂得珍惜。
但我常看别人。好像对家都没什么感觉。
到底人为什么会想家又有的人恨不得不要再回家。
家的定义是什么？
我心里一直有个疑问。到底是我们遇到挫折后才会想家？
还是想家一直就在我们心里。只不过它没有被明显化？
又或者我们都太忙，想家都被隐藏起来了？
如果有那么一次奇迹的机会可以马上回家
我会马上抱紧爸爸妈妈。问没有我的这些日子你们过得还好吗？
有没有睡好？有没有戒掉喝咖啡的习惯？会孤单吗？
我真的很开心。如果不是真么一次离家来这读书。我可能永远都发觉不了家的温暖。
哈哈，以后一定要尽我全力好好报答爸妈^^
我希望以后不会忙过头让我忘记这最初的承诺.

17-03-12(exactly one week after the show :))

Today. This post will be using mandarin to write.
hmm... Reason? Cause i dunno how to express my feeling using english.. haha
一个礼拜过去了。10-03-12之前重视希望那天快点过。
最后，它真的过了。比如其想象中快。
今天早上由于kokum的关系，再次经过那充满回忆的地方。
anjung siswa-我们建立我们友情的地方。
依然记得当时大家一起在bilik seminar集合。一个个陌生的面孔。
一个个慢慢的开始记名，到后来的一起练声音。一起练习。
一起等巴士。一起改稿。一起练发声，一起练舞。
一起模仿颁奖典礼，一起吃晚餐。一起在闷热DC排练。
一起吃着那不爱吃的枇杷膏。一起洗汤匙。一起熬通宵就为了让大家的努力可以给人家看到。
那些“枪是低等人用的”，“你们给我做，做，不停的做，做死你们”，“我是啊kent，请投我一票”，“不是说了吗，今天不用陪我你就是不听”，“你就是爱搞怪”... 等等的字眼。不停在脑海里打转。
那种种的回忆一瞬间从内心深处涌了出来。麻醉了身体每个大小部分。
不知觉的悲从中来。思念你们的细胞又在活跃了。
还记得在上个学期，好玩。一口就答应朋友要参与演出。
但事后突然开始有点反悔。还曾想过放弃演出。想不负责任的离开。所以都没出席开会。
到了这学期。因为角色都已经分配好了。所以鼓起勇气上了！
说真的，要不是当时提起这股勇气，可能现在的我依然觉得在这大学没留下什么特别回忆。
是你们让我的大学生活曾经的精彩一次。
虽然那只不过是一个小角色。但我非常开心。
是因为你们的肯定，我才有勇气踏上舞台。
虽然参与了这演出后的确有点赶不上功课。
但是我心甘情愿。这几个礼拜在忙一点也没关系。
那些年里有九把刀，下南洋里有十把刀（振辉）。
那些年有我们错过的女孩，下南洋里有我们留下美好的回忆。
如果下次还有机会和你们合作，
行！那算我一个！谁叫我们中国人只懂得吃苦，不懂得吃饱。哈哈

02-03-2012

8 days more.. i will be stand on the stage and perform a drama for pesta tiong hua
which is a event from my university..
recently all the actors keep on practise and practise.. like crazy ppl
at first.. i got a little bit worry that i cant handle it well.
but until now, i start to like it. i like the moment we play and practise.
but then life is so cruel.
when u wan to do something. no. i should say. u can only just do ONEthing but not something at the same time.
ya. i promise to be one of the actor in the drama. though is just a side character.
everyday i go to practise. the time i be with my frens here is become less and less.
actually it's ok for me. but then just now i saw 2 of my frens who stay opposite of my room.. errm. seems like wanna go out..
and the time i realized they already having their activity themselves and im the one dunno wat's happening between them or wat they r going to do..
the feeling of loneliness suddenly surround my heart..
tat cells of sadness suddenly activate.
that isn't their wrong.
just the distance between me and them is quite long since the day after i back to sabah..
台上一分钟，台下十年工。十年工？牺牲？孤独？
haha... i dunno why i become emo so sudden..
10th march! im coming for u! u better pass faster! haha

23-02-2012

3rd days after my birthday.. haha
Im 21 years old this year..
the different of this year compare to others?
I celebrate with new frens at new place! sabah
A place ppl tot very ulu.. lol
last few years. i celebrated it with my best fren wai cheuck! haha
but then this year i have to go back to sabah earlier cause my birthday was the first day of second semester.
the biggest present i received for this year?
2 Programming for this sem! The course which fail me last sem. woohoo..
since i never care bout wat course im gonna take for following sem
Once i received this news.. I smiled! haha.. another sem to die!
other than this present. i get a surprise too..
from my uni frens.. haha
they brought me to secret recipe and suddenly the song of "happy birthday" starts!
haha.. dunno why. i felt so panic tat day. until my hands keep on shaking. lol
but then still very touched la! haha
there is a feeling inside my heart.
i felt that im lacking of something.
tat day not the happiest i could reach..
some kind like lonely suddenly reached to the bottom of my heart..
i?? what happened to me?
or because of i homesick? fren-sick?
surely. that's my own problem.. haha
thanks for the celebration and cheese cake! yow,clarence,erick,ben,patrick,edward,purple and jiayi.!
And oso thanks for tian ai's green tea latte!

05-01-2012 (To Brothers^^)

Yeah.. Undoubtedly this will be the first post in this brand new 2012!
Today is a birthday of one of my best buddy--> chin kim ming! haha..
Actually I almost forget bout it.. Cause recently busy for my final exam..
2 down.. 6 to go~~ the toughest subject still waiting for me there.. lol
I'm gonna end it soon.. Can't wait to celebrate CNY and meet my family and all my buddies! Especially wai cheuck and jian wei xD
I think im not alone ba.. Recently most of my frens oso prepare for their final exam.
This few weeks can consider the most *emo* period of our uni life..
K book everyday.. haha
Everyone has different subjects to fight for..
My first sem is gonna end soon. yeah.. really experience many things here.. haha
Other than those experiences i mentioned in the last blog..
I realized the importance of friendship. The friendship i mention isn't to my new friends at Sabah here.. But those i know for few years and already continue their study in other university. After these 3-4 months without meeting each other, we seems like more appreciate each other..
I feel warm after I chat with wai cheuck, jian wei, kim ming, chun hong and also kheng jie.. To wai cheuck.. I really feel so ashamed because there are few arguements and unhappiness happened between us during form 6 and also after form 6. And I'm always be the one who start it. I shouldn't doubt bout him. Maybe our friendship not strong enough. And I'm sorry for never to be the first to apologize. Really 'no face' to face you.. But no matter how.. I will still treat you as the best buddy! Cause you are the one experienced the most things with me.. You are the one treat me as GOOD fren after form 5. You are the one who teach me a lot of new knowledge.You are the one who always jio me go out play thus i wouldn't be a otaku.. haha.. I hope the next time we meet, we will not too "客气" to each other. LOL.. Our friendship already last bout 6-7 years leh! haha.. err.. I think that's all i wan to say to you xD
But other than that, another happy news is bout kheng jie and kim ming. Because I think before go uni, we never chat and webcam to each other so syok.. we talk a lot of nonsense. we sharing our uni's experience with each other.. haha
I can't wait to chat with u all face to face!
Wait for me! I'm going back soon! see you guys in SP! ;)